At the beginning of this year, I started a journal. I wrote in it every day - messy thoughts, spirals, fears, small wins, quiet truths - and somewhere in those pages, something unexpected happened. I met myself. Parts of me I had buried. Feelings I never knew how to speak. That journal became a mirror, and I realised something that changed everything:

You can’t fully love yourself if you never take the time to truly meet yourself.

So before anything else, I want to introduce myself.

I’m Eva, a 23-year-old eldest daughter with a lifetime of big sister energy. I grew up in a home split between two parents who each carried their own storms, and from an early age, I became the steady one. The observer. The emotional glue. I learned how to hold space long before I knew what “holding space” meant.

My childhood was full - of magic, chaos, love, trauma, and spiritual breadcrumbs I wouldn’t understand until years later. I felt everything deeply and silently. By the time I reached my teens, all that unspoken weight turned inward. I struggled with depression, self-harm, and an eating disorder that shaped far more of my life than anyone knew. I carried everyone else, but couldn’t find the space to carry myself.

Things shifted when I was 17. I started nurturing myself - slowly, gently, imperfectly. Cooking became healing. Movement became connection. And for the first time, I treated my body like someone worth loving. It was the beginning of my self-love journey, even if I didn’t know it yet.

The deeper work came later - when I started my plus-size vintage business and began sharing pieces of my healing online. What I posted wasn’t polished “advice.” It was real-time self-love in progress. Honest reflections. Vulnerability without performance. And people connected to it, deeply. It made me realise just how much we’re all craving the conversations we were never taught to have.

This is the education we should’ve been given.

This is what we’re all still learning.

This is where Big Sister Secrets was born.

I’m not here as someone who has it all figured out. I’m here as someone who’s still learning - just like you - and willing to turn my inner world into something that helps other women feel less alone in theirs.

Welcome to my corner of the internet, angel.

You’re safe here.

And you’re not doing any of this alone anymore.